i burnt my fingerprints off at work. i could steal things without a trace.

zooey ate a spider, then looked for it. i said, zooey it's gone. you ate it. poor baby.

how fitting, that the people one loves the most, are the ones that cause the most pain.

bulletins become so boring, and the questions are always the same. today my mother said that i hated her and i didn't deny it. 

if you knew someone you once knew hated you, wouldn't you want to know why? yes, i would. 

i've made a new ritual, for chai tea and cigarettes in the rain. isn't it wonderful?

oh no. just as i said that, zooey did catch a bird. james and i chased her around the yard, with the poor sparrow in her mouth. it kept trying to get away, and i screamed. that poor bird. i always knew zooey was vicious without reason. just like alex. 

i really hope zooey catches a bird one day, and drops it at my window. she just tries so hard. 

carly is funnier than I could ever hope to be.
she said her iron sachets taste like blood. yuck. disgusting.
then she said, but... if I ever get vampire urges...

today, carly pretended to die, to see if zooey would meow for help. instead, zooey just tilted her head on the side, and walked away. 

oh, i just met the nicest neighbor. we spoke for hours, and now i've done no english homework, and no psychology homework.

she loves cats, and her boyfriend is from america. she invited me over on saturday, is that strange?

today i made dinner with almonds. carly said she hated nuts, spat it out and said, "argh i'm going to get a cold sore"

then, she drank all the raspberry soda without leaving me one sip.

so i said, "i hope you get a million cold sores and your face rots away"

what a pleasant evening. 

this is what i have; two cats and a box of sugar cubes.

this is what i don't; everything.

god, i'm so selfish. 

today was horrible. i hate summer, and i hate being poor, and i hate wanting everything. maybe being terribly insatiable is one of my flaws too. 

so, how great are dictionaries? really.

Oh, it's so terrible when you learn that you really want something. Something you can't get by just pulling your top down, or pressing money into people's palms. 

I think zooey is a killer, and I like that. If only she could kill people. 

do you have any idea how hard it is to become more clever?

I think that mostly I'm afraid of living for too long, because then I need to figure out what to do. 

So the moon came back a few nights ago, and aimee and I were so happy to see it. Also, the homeless man and his pet tiger who used to hide in my backyard have gone. Maybe to watch someone else while they sleep. 

How nice is it when the days all get mixed up, and you walk around dressed for sunday, when really, it's wednesday.

oh, my feet are dying and I hate the tennis. There is no where to smoke, and today when I was smoking, I heard someone yell out, "No one fucking smokes at the tennis" well, I do. Actually, that made me laugh.